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Sunday, January 22
The more I think on this, the more I love it.
Earlier this week, I found myself beginning to stress about something that could potentially change the coarse of many lives. Funny how I just "know" what the right answer/choice/direction should be...even before I submit it all in prayer — NOT! I found myself needing to remember that God wants to be involved in every single thing that burdens me, and even better: He wants to handle it BEFORE it becomes a burden. So I prayed about the situation. I prayed from my heart, even if my desires and hopes are selfish. Then I prayed from a surrendered heart: one that wants God's will above all. Did I feel 100% better? No. I still felt some anxiety over that which is beyond my control. So I pictured little Josiah throwing his 8-year old hands up to God to release his prayers. For me, I like this image of praying my prayers, then taking an active approach to trust God enough to collect my words/thoughts/plees, etc. and handle it all. It's a deeper way of letting go — not just with a single prayer of submission, but with a daily reminder that it's in God's hands now.
I still find every once in awhile that I'm tempted to think about this particular worry again. I can feel my heart start to beat a little faster and sense a heaviness start to fill my soul. It's then that I give myself a gentle reminder that this concern has already been thrown up to God...from my hands to His. I shouldn't snatch it back out of God's hands and dwell on it or fret about it.
It may be a very long time before I know how God will answer this prayer. Until then, I will turn my concerns into peace — knowing it's off of my shoulders and onto God's.